"Billionaire" by Travie McCoy

Right now, I can't stop singing this song! I remember *loving* Travie McCoy in Gym Class Heroes. The album came out at a great time. Perfect for summer and that "Forever Young" feeling. I'm glad to see him up and making music.

It's kind of strange to be alternating "Billionaire" and "California Gurls" by Katy Perry. They used to be together ::shrug::. I heard he's not really into black girls..hhmmm.


=~.^=
La Vixxen

Fantasies

I don't know if it's because I'm a city girl, but my life fantasies circle around the beach. Living by the beach, socializing by the beach, working near the beach... you get the point. But the truth is that I rarely go to the beach. I'm a dreadful swimmer. My high school had a requirement that everyone know how to swim before they graduate. I was the last one.

So why the beach? Maybe it's this idea that people want what they don't have. A "grass is greener on the other side" sort of thing. It's that itch that I move to California although I adore Philadelphia.

As a Pisces, I can get swept up in my daydreams. I can't help but wonder what life would be like if it were summer all the time. Then of course, the daydreams have to include a hunk right? So then I have to create this summer beach guy to go along with my daydream. And to be honest, I have no damn clue what that would include.

To get over this, I think a trip to Cali may be due. Who's with me?

Paranoia

I have officially realized that I pretty paranoid. I have these ideas that people have malicious intentions. Like if someone doesn't reply to something, they are intentionally ignoring me. Or if I'm contacted by someone randomly, it's no good.

The thing about this is that I think it may be a delusion. Which is strange because you can't really recognize a delusion.

It's some paradox that I have created in my life. While I enjoy people and getting to know people, I worry about why people want to know me. To be honest, I find myself to be boring (but that may be because I'm around me all the time).

I feel like I have reached some point in my life where self-exploration is necessary. And if there is time for me to learn about me, this is it.

=~.^=
La VIxxen

Waiting and Watching

Recently, it seems like I have a lot to say but not enough people to say it to. Strange. Rather, it's more like I speak to people and they are simply waiting for their chance to speak. Not really listening. But then I remembered I have this blog. Space, I suppose, to write. If anyone wants to here it, hear it is.

I haven't made a YouTube video in a while and it hurts. I have ideas but rarely the time to film. Something about finding a full time job after college graduation drives one mad. But I've had some promising prospects, so hopefully a video will emerge soon.

There was a guy. I Facebook stalked him. He's now in France and out of my visual field. I've moved on. He never knew.

To be honest, I feel like I have a crush on everyone. I want to know everyone's story and thoughts. But if you like cats, that's even better.


=~.^=
La Vixxen

Travel: Tokyo Quest: Ramen 101 - nytimes.com/video

mmmmm

Boop Bee Doop

Once again I am sitting here thinking something has to change. Tomorrow I head back to campus for classes. I came back to NYC but did not take the time to really embrace it. I'm just going to stick to the excuse that I did not have enough time in this vacation.

>Maybe that is my problem; grabbing a free floating excuse and holding on for dear life.


I'll be going from one city to another, therefore; the urban resources are still in abundance. I can still venture out and find new clubs and new kinds of people. I can finally finish my pink and creme Betsey Johnson inspired dress and wear it to the most inappropriate event. I can get some decent experiences to blog/vlog about. Right now, anything I could produce would not be something I would want to read or watch, just to be honest with myself.

This is the moment where I remember that I will die.

It's really easy to forget that we only have one life and most of the risks we can take will not ruin that one life. Time to stand up and get that flapper spirit. Wear that short skirt and sneak a few sips of Brandy.



1) Finish my dress. It's beautiful so far and sewing is amazing... including the times when the bobbin get tangled

2) Throw a theme party. I have been planning this one for a while but never really made the moves for it. I look for any excuse to play dress up... including everyday activities.

3) Attend at least one event a week. I really let the weekends go by without doing much. I have no excuse for this because I love reading the non-profit indie newspapers in which the latest events are listed.

4) Purchase the garter belt and stockings. It only seems right.



Cigarettes and Black Barets,
Pixie Vixxen

Youtube Channel!

I finally had enough of real life and set up a new youtube account. I have always had a youtube account but it was filled with favorited videos ranging from disney clips to beyonce videos. Nothing wrong with that but it was just messy. Plus it wasn't titled Pixie Vixxen. This video was just me playing around with cameras, video editing programs, and youtube. We'll see what comes out of this ^_^

Here is a link to my channel!

http://www.youtube.com/PixieVixxen

I hope this is the start to something fun.


Ciao,

Pixie Vixxen